the past few days were a nightmare, and i dont think next week would be any better. friday afternoon wasa nightmare for me.

i didnt do anything since friday. all i did was mope ard the house and lie on my bed. i dont feel like walking ard, i dont feel like going out. i thought my parents and gab would get turned off by my moodiness. but gab even encouraged me to get out of the house later. i dont feel like going. i feel like just staying in my room.

my dad told my grandma that i had some rs problems, and she came into my room and started scolding me. she said i deserved it and everything. i dont deserve anything, it wasnt even my fault! i dont understand why cant she be supportive like my parents. why does she have to say things that bring me down? im feeling bad enough as it is. i dont need to be reprimanded at this point in time. if you have to scold me, do it when im in a better mood.

i dont want this to happen. you think im happy to see things become like this? so many people were affected. why cant she just try to be understanding and not probe so much into things. before she knew what happened, she would come to me and ask what happened, that no matter what she and my parents would always be there for me. then now? she doesnt know the details! she just knows that i got into a relationship that flopped and now im recovering from it. doesnt she have anything better to say than that i asked for it?

i didnt know things would turn out this way. you think i feel good by getting into trouble, and telling people what i dont want to? i didnt want this to happen. i really didnt. i wasnt the only involved. i didnt ask to get involved in this. i didnt ask for this to happen. why cant you just leave me alone and let it be. what's happened alr happened. i cant change anything anymore. no point scolding me for something that's already happened.

'thanks' for being supportive like you said you would be.